Misshapen chaos in the form of a delicate vanity
Tantalizing stroking of a shallow ended ego
A whisper of lips against the hollow of a throat
Promises made in the heat of a moment
Forgotten by the light of day
I’d give a shard of my soul
To make those words true
“I love you”
A pretty thought
A double edged sword
That cuts deeper than most
A scar to hide from the word
Written in steel upon my shuddered heart
Another layer of ice
To lock the heat of lust inside
Another smile faked
In order to keep the secrets hidden
I want you so
A mumble of forbidden desire
Breathed heavily upon sweat laced skin
A humbled mind
To lay upon your feet
So that you may walk
Through the layers of my dreams
As foolish as it may be
I love you still
Gagging from having swallowed this infection known as temptation.
Strangled with ill-content and choking on good intentions
Bound by these delusions of a brighter dis-content
Tethered by willful logic and self-inflected madness
Envious of the spiraling ignorance
A wolf among the flock of sheep
I have gouged my faith out of this decaying belief in the good of man kind
Forged by hate and pride, I will build my armor with forgotten feeling
The pressure of this burden will ease upon these trembling shoulders
I fear I cannot hold this forever
Guilt stricken and heavy, I push my way through the forming crowd
My finger itchy upon the trigger
Pacing the halls of my own personal hell
Talking aloud to no one but myself
Self induced insanity covered by pretty lies and false smiles
You’ll never see the difference anyway
Looking closely at the mirror of Truth
A flawed perfection
In this I have found some form of temporary sanity
Drunk off the essence of some darker faith
Rocking silently, driven mad by this pattern of sleep disarray
The walls are closing in on my brighter discontent
There really is no place like home..
